This past week had been crazy, I couldn't really blog because once again I found myself lost for words basically josh got me jumped, things were crazy and I was still in love with him!!!  :/ well two girls started texting my phone and before u know it hands were being thrown... *sigh *

Hi.  Feeling neglected or forgotten about, don't worry, you're still my number one. But I've been so lost for words I didn't even bother. This week I decided to venture out and make new friends, can't be stuck on yasmine forever dumb bitch I wanna kill her.  My new friends tierra dobs and Aaliyah.  I haven't heard the best things about them but, hey,we're all fake in my eyes

Sitting here in my fourth block better know as the worst class ever... for some reason I always think of age when I'm here after all my teacher is ancient and miserable... smh would I someday be old and miserable too? Shit I'm young and miserable

so this weekend hasnt really been the best weekend , but with all the crazy events that i wont even began to get into, i have a new outlook on life and the way things should be handled. sometimes you just have to say ahh fuck it , and say a prayer , because you may feel alone sometimes but their is always someone that cares about you , i know i have the best friends in the worl , excluding that bitch yasmine, and i can depend on them just to put a smile on my face anytime i need it.

Maybe it was just me being a girl but I have been in a terrible mood lately. All I wanna do is cry and it seems like nobody understands. Just like the episode of spongebob I'm watching, he just wants to be him but nobody understands that. Especially Ms puff, ugh I always hated her. Maybe I needed to change who I was and maybe people would relate and understand me better

Hmm

So to end today me and Josh are in the middle of an argument and I'm watching the VMA's... why can't I just be famous and not have to worry about stupid stuff like school and Relationships ? Well I'm just gonna day my prayers and go to sleep.  Because after all it is whatever... right? 

Whoa

It completley bothered me that everyone blew me. Off for yasmine so I decided to let them know one by one, I started with Brian. He was someone she met through me

Friends ?

So I just sent my ex best friend yasmine the longest text ever, it's weird to be doing this because she was my best friend we did everything together. Then she dumped her boyfriend and dumped me too?  Wow .I was mad, I was sad, I was hurt and everyone took her side. Nobody tried to understand me. And I'm to the point to where I DON'T CARE.

Mhmm

So today I came home to my phone, it was chicken day at school and Ive been wondering how to describe my day. It was just another day,ever think that stereo typing girls is wrong, even though everything about it is true. We have mood swings out of nowhere and were have just about the worst attitudes, thats how I was today, but I have no clue why... but hey.whatever right?

hey !

you ever wonder what you would do if this 2012 stuff was real ? like what if we really were doomed and had a set date to die? what would you do ? who would you spend it with? me ? its very debatable. personally id [bleeeep the bleeeep outta my " oh so perfect lover" ] until god calls me home, lol, maybe im just being freaked out but id have fun, make my last moments happy. YOLO my nigga. id do something id always been afraid to do , or always thought i was too good for , which brings me to my bestfriend nee nee , she has to live a little, i mean you're looking at a straight A student who does not have a boyfriend and does not go anywhere. im suprised the girl isnt insane, then she never gives guys a chance and its like WTF is wrong with you , but she's been my best friend since 6th grade and she's always been there for me(: she's like my other half ..my nigga ! my roll dog ! i just wonder how i can get her into having some fun ?

goodnight

so, ive most definitley enjoyed my night, just having people to make you laugh can really turn your day around. still no talking to Josh, but im comfortable with that , and if things remain this way then life goes on. so today was just another day in two thousand and suck it and well while not everday , month or week is a good one, im sure they'll be something that comes along that makes me happy. welp , anyway im about to log off and say a prayer or two (: night 9:54 p.m 9/5/12

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hey again, so i try to make it a habit to pray throughout the day , and especially in the morning , so i have a nice blessed day , im praying in the bathroom sink , at the bus stop, in my classrooms you know..but i also read my horoscope. maybe the two clash with each other and i should just tsick to praying because today was horrible. he didnt even acknowledge me, he just looked at me....im used to it tho, happens every two weeks. then on top of that i just wasnt in my best mood and i just finished nine thousand tons of homework, gosh im ready to graduate.

love and other feelings

You know people really suck , i keep trying to figure out why my relationship sucks because its really not my fault.. i dont think.. i hang out with him as much as i can and check this i chilled with this guy everyday this weekend and he tweets that he wants to start over with someone new..wtf you{bleeeeep} like he has got to be kidding me . than on top of that we havent argued in months its been like smooth sailing basically. so for those of you who dont know me and josh have been doing this for eleven months, and he has yet to DTR ...seriously, like i want to slap him and like we're together like every weekend and as soon as we arent together he tweets to other girls. pshh leeah, onika, courtni, samone, @slick_smoov <---- i dont like her, maybe its pointless to waisst my time worrying about him , but he has been so sweet lately and now he's back in his old habbits.  i dont know if im in love with him or if im addicted to making out with him but .. hmm whatever right ?

two thousand & suck it

so its September 4th and its just another day in two thousand and suck it . ive been without my cell phone since July. and really i have no life. so i started a blog. well ive had this blog for years but stopped using it. so anyway i have no life, i have no friends, and im bored . interesting right ? oh and my best friend is a traitor , my dad is a stalker and my relationship with my " oh so perfect lover" mr joshua anthony sucks . wanna know why ? hmm keep reading my blog. i dont plan on sharing this. but *shrugs* you never know.